Among one of my many excuses not to go was that we would have to stop trying to get pregnant for a couple months. We have to get a lot of immunizations and it is not recommended to get pregnant while being shot up with a bunch of chemicals, makes sense. Most of you know that we have been trying to get pregnant since last summer and have had no results so far, although practice makes perfect (that's the theory anyways). I only have one functional fallopian tube, so we knew it was going to take us a little longer than the average Joe (and Jane). This has not been a huge source of worry, but the journey is a bit of an emotional one.
I just wanted to write about this as a testament to how amazing God is. At the end of one of our meetings for our trip we each were instructed to draw a name of a team member out of a bowl, and we were to go over and pray for him or her. I drew Kristen's name and once I was done praying for her she asked if she could pray for me. Of course I said sure, so she began to pray. As she was praying she looked up and said, "I don't know if this is way off, but I have a picture of you in my mind and you are pregnant. You are walking towards the sun and holding a man's hand." Now Kristen had no knowledge of our history and did not even know that this was a concern of mine. After getting over the shock of the moment, I thought, "Oh my gosh, He really loves me." And for someone who struggles with guilt, this is a great realization. It also gave me confirmation that this is what we are supposed to be doing.
Don’t worry about anything; instead, pray about everything. Tell God what you need, and thank him for all he has done. Then you will experience God’s peace, which exceeds anything we can understand. His peace will guard your hearts and minds as you live in Christ Jesus. Philippians 4:6-7
I am looking forward to this trip and beyond with great expectations!
PS. We leave in T minus 3 days!!! WOW!